Hais.. Im missing my boy so badly now. Im suddenly so afraid and my thoughts are drifting away. I really need my baby`s assurance now. So many things are happening suddenly..it seems like god is trying to take all my loved ones away from me.
Firstly, my sisters got caught by the CNB recently.. i may not have shown that i cared but deep down i do.. i really pray hard that nothing would happen to them. Secondly, its hubby. I dont wanna state what happened but im really afraid that he would be taken away too. I`ve told him many times..told him not to do those kinda stupid things, but yet he doesnt wanna listen.. now that he might get into trouble thanks to his so called 'brothers'...den he wanna regret everything. Its useless for me to say so much because what happened has already happened. And we can only take one step at a time and cherish each other now with the time we have. Just wanna assure my baby that if anything happens, i will wait for him and will take care of myself. Hais..i still cannot accept this fact and my tears would trickle down uncontrollably. Heard of this bad news 2-3 days ago and up til now, i am still crying over it. Call me a cry baby but if you were in my shoes, you would understand. I always thought that hubby would NEVER leave me, i always took him for granted and always raised my voice at him. Even till now, i still scold him when he always gives in to me.. i still dont know how to cherish him dont i? I always think that i do not love him that much..i think this way so that i would assure myself that i wouldnt fall as hard as i did the last time him broke up with me.. but now, even without him leaving me..i finally understand how much i love him and how much he means to me. Why must i come to realise of it today? Why cant i learn to cherish him even at this point of time? He really needs me by his side now and yet i still raise my dammit voice at him. I hate myself! Hais.. baby..i love you.. i`ll be praying that nothing would happen to you.. hais.. i love you i love you i love you!!
( ::"-":: ) Hais.. God, why must you play this kinda jokes on me ?
Firstly, my sisters got caught by the CNB recently.. i may not have shown that i cared but deep down i do.. i really pray hard that nothing would happen to them. Secondly, its hubby. I dont wanna state what happened but im really afraid that he would be taken away too. I`ve told him many times..told him not to do those kinda stupid things, but yet he doesnt wanna listen.. now that he might get into trouble thanks to his so called 'brothers'...den he wanna regret everything. Its useless for me to say so much because what happened has already happened. And we can only take one step at a time and cherish each other now with the time we have. Just wanna assure my baby that if anything happens, i will wait for him and will take care of myself. Hais..i still cannot accept this fact and my tears would trickle down uncontrollably. Heard of this bad news 2-3 days ago and up til now, i am still crying over it. Call me a cry baby but if you were in my shoes, you would understand. I always thought that hubby would NEVER leave me, i always took him for granted and always raised my voice at him. Even till now, i still scold him when he always gives in to me.. i still dont know how to cherish him dont i? I always think that i do not love him that much..i think this way so that i would assure myself that i wouldnt fall as hard as i did the last time him broke up with me.. but now, even without him leaving me..i finally understand how much i love him and how much he means to me. Why must i come to realise of it today? Why cant i learn to cherish him even at this point of time? He really needs me by his side now and yet i still raise my dammit voice at him. I hate myself! Hais.. baby..i love you.. i`ll be praying that nothing would happen to you.. hais.. i love you i love you i love you!!
( ::"-":: ) Hais.. God, why must you play this kinda jokes on me ?
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